Bad News from Josh

Josh just contacted me yesterday, would of posted this then but I forgot. He told me that his phones just got disconnected and he was waiting for a call from a job he wanted. I can't believe how hard it must be for him. He doesn't seem to like where he is and every attepmt he tries to leave something goes wrong. I hope it improves for him, if I can do anything for him I will.

Finally!

I finally got a hold of Matthew. Apparently he thinks his life is better where it is because of the friends he has up there. I think he is wrong. Ever since he moved there 2 years ago he became a different person from what I knew him to be. He did things he shouldn't have, and other things he's been doing more often. I tried to save him from a ruined life. I care about my friends and since I lose more friends then I gain, I want to save or help those that have become close to me. I have maybe 2 or 3 very close friends and I want to keep them. We might go our seprate ways during college but after we can get together and spend life as friends forever. One thing that means the world to me is my friends. Without them I don't think I would be the person I am. So I am trying to get him back here. He has some things to finish up there and then he will be back. He told me that the friends he has down there are even planing to move. I told him that he can call them anytime he wants now that we have unlimited Long Distance. I hope he does come back, World of Warcraft is changing and there is a direct TV box in his room, not being used.

My Life Thus Far

Not much has happend in the years i have been alive. I live a somewhat normal life in a town that I have only dreamed about leaving. Friends have come and go, as do all things in a persons life. My Father's mother passed away in 98 and my Mother's Mom passed in 2001. I didn't take it to hard, i wasn't too close to them but my brother Tony was. After my Grandmother passed in 2001 my brother's life went down hill, and mine with it. It wasn't as bad as it seems. He started to do drugs and treat me like dirt. It was like that for a good 3 years, till he met his boyfriend. I am not ashamed to have a gay brother, I actually think "True Love" has no age or gender, just the law. Since he's been with his boyfriend, Jason, he has been more nice and caring. He still treats me like trash though and I try to remember that it is sign not to follow his foot steps. Recently a friend came to live with me. I try to do the best I can to help my friends out. The thing with this friend is he seems to be going in the same direction as my Brother did. Matthew, my friend, lost both his parents, and I don't know exactly when he started but is now doing drugs. He left to go visit his friends in his old town for a month, never returned. It has been 4 months since then and I haven't given up on him. He has no way, other than his sister's cell phone, to call me. So I try my best to catch his sister away from work so I might be able to get a hold of him. It hard dealing with things that you can't really control. I hope that he comes back, he is my best friend and I want to help him. This is about all that has gone on in my life, other than somethings I don't want to put. Compared to some people this is nothing. It is probably a walk in the park to most people in the world. For me, it is hard, and I hope it gets better. Most my blogs after this might be about World of Warcraft of movies I saw. Not much of a life right now, but soon that will change.