A Single Moment...

In a single moment my wonderful day turned to a horrible depression filled day that I have been trying so hard never to have again. Events happend that I wish never did, but I can't turn back the clock. I would talk about them more but I promised someone I wouldn't talk about anything online that contained his/her name or dealt with them in any way. So i guess the only way to find out more about this is to be a friend of mine and earn my trust. Its not that important to make friends with a person on here just to find out more about a problem they have. Well, im always looking for new people to share things with. If you like to talk about things with a person that doesn't personaly know you then im the guy. I listen pretty well, its finding people that listen to me that is hard. Well, Hope everyone has a happy Thanksgiving and don't spend too much on Black Friday! ^_^

Clearing Things Up.

Most of my blog will seem like its just whining but in truth its just a way for me to tell people what is on my mind. My best friend that was living with me decided to go back to his original place. Seeing that he was really the only person i could talk to anytime I find myself bottling up emotions and things and its making me sick. So I write my problems down and hope to get some feed back on what to do...seeing that not many people read my blog I guess in reality I am just whining and complaining. I always believe that its worth trying things at least once. So I continue to write my problems and feelings down and hope to get some feed back on how to deal with them.

Frustrated.

I am either really dumb, or just really freaken tired. I can't seem to put a background on my blog. No wander many people prefer myspace. well, i guess whining about it won't help...i'll try again later

Break up

I broke up with my girlfriend today. I never really believed that your heart hurts when you lose someone you love. I know that to be true now, my chest has hurt ever since it happened. Time will have to repair the damage and I will find someone for me yet. Love is a wonderful thing to have, but it hurts when you lose it. Thought maybe writing about it might make me feel slightly better. The one thing I am happy about is that she decided to stay my friend. She had such an impact on my life it would be horrible to lose such a great friend. I hope she finds someone as good or better than me and I hope I find someone just as great or better than she is. Might be hard for me, never met a girl as great as her yet. I wish both of us a happy life and hope we can remain friend till the end.

A Dream

Recently I had a dream. The dream was of me and a girlfriend. We were both in my Basement asleep on seprerate beds. Something had woke her up and she went into the next room where the piano is located. She pulled out the bench and sat down. Few minutes later I woke up to notice she wasn't in her bed. I got up and went to the Piano room and saw her sitting there, pretending to play the piano. Slowly I walked up to her and grabbed ahold of her from behind. I leaned in and gave her a kiss saying, "What are you doing up so late?" She looked at me and just stated "I couldn't sleep." The dream was so clear to me it was like I was actually there. I could see what we were wearing to bed and how my house looked. She was wearing a Bed shirt and Pants set that were blue with flowers on them. I was wearing just some kind of red Night pants. It was so real I swore it happened. After I woke up I was disappointed that it was just a dream. I know that I will never forget that dream. It is the best dream I have ever had.